Irritated...

....how do I measure my irritation today? By the fact that I realized I had forgotten my helmet and shoes for the first 'cross of the season as I was pulling into registration. I am such a collosal asshole sometimes. I got up extra early to stretch out my aching back, had a cup of joe, and did all sorts of wiggling around on the Swiss ball. Jumped on the trainer for 15 minutes for some light spinning, had some more coffee, and a trip to the hopper. I was excited and nervous and fired up and ready to GO! I love to ride my bike, but I really, really, REALLY LOVE to race cyclocross. The lung-bursting effort, the mud, the comraderie, the cupcakes, the fall weather, all of it.

F*CK, I am so pissed off at myself for missing this race! It's a wonderfully fun course and it's wet and mucky today, so I was psyched to blow some of the crap out of my lungs and get going.

Honestly though, this is somewhat indicative of how life is these days....as much as I'm trying desperately to simplify, simplify, simplify, I am running in a thousand directions at once and it is taking its toll. My life is anything but simple. Work has been bananas busy as I am working to build my business in the NE region. I am plugging away with the gut job of the main bathroom in our house (sealing the new floor tile at 10pm last night is likely why I forgot to pack my sh*t correctly for today's race). All of the kids are busy with either school and/or fall sports. Penny is working a couple of days per week so we're both running the household solo most of the time. I am back in chiropractor/physical therapy a couple of days per week to continue to work out my back issues.

UGGGGGGGGGGGGGH. I thought when I got out of school my schedule would free up a bit, but it seems like I am more busy than ever.

I think I need some some professional help! But hey, it's just a bike race, right???